2006-03-22, 3:46 p.m.

I have not yet achieved leaving my body behind, though came close to amnesia during some trips that, quite frankly, i'm glad i'm still around and actually know who i am, for the most part.

my body is still here, this small college town, this deli, this house, this earth.

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not much the wiser, these last seven months spent in what friends call "girlfriend land." things ended, enough said, and i find myself back at the bar again, three week bender, oh my liver!, and bank account looking dire...

but sense of calm, having gotten real sleep the other night.

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i gave up video games. its been one month, a night or two relapse that didn't last long, and me thinks my head is clearer.

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a week in portland, oregon. my friends! my oldest ones, you who knew me then...

much needed vacation from this world... we found the goonies rocks and even tracked down the house in Astoria. on the beach by the rocks i found myself among couples, and i newly single found a fondness for being alone, listening to the surf, feeling the mist of the air.

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there's more to say, i've been withholding. but now i'm late for work.

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