2005-05-06, 1:22 p.m.

i'm hoping the shit storm of the last two weeks have run its course.

knocking on wood.

because there is good news on the horizon. very good news.

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for starters, the newest album by tmg is currently residing in my back pack, waiting to be played for the first time.

and of course having something to look forward to for the evening will make the next eight hours utterly drag by.

and thursday, yes, they will be playing in kalamazoo, though i am scheduled to work, of course, so i may not get to see him this time around. rats.

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and my decision not to be an utter wuss in front of members of the opposite sex has paid off.

i had a date, a real date, a most "normal" date... i had asked her out when somewhat sober, she accepted.

we met for coffee, walked around town for a bit, went out to eat, and then for drinks at a bar. i walked her home, and we even kissed for a little bit.

it felt like 1950 or something; and its like the second real date i've ever been on with a complete stranger.

and i feel as if i'm not getting my hopes up all at once, like i usually do.

maybe i've learned my lesson? time will tell. i'll still probably screw it up somehow, in typically me fashion.

knocking on wood.

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otherwise i've been going boozin' a little too often lately. the bank account is seriously hit, not to mention my insides.

the other night i acted like such a boy, misbehavin with two friends of mine, utterly drunk at a random house party in which we knew no one.

they didn't seem to mind we raided the fridge, stealing a carton of eggs. not to mention setting a piniata (sp) on fire.

it seemed like a good idea at the time.

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that phrase could quite possibly end up the epitaph on my tombstone. along with the one i do have planned, "d for effort."

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